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📓 Diarist: Nadine Walker (Vancouver, Canada, 55 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: Politeness Across Borders
I took my book and my thermos of tea to Stanley Park this week. Thought I’d read under the same maple I always do. Instead, I spent the afternoon talking to a family from Ohio.
Two children, sunburned and sweet. A mother who said “I’m sorry” at least three times for things she didn’t need to.
She apologized for the president. For “how we’ve been treating you all.” For something someone on TV said about Canada last month. I told her, kindly, “It’s alright.” But I couldn’t stop thinking about it later.
We Canadians are supposed to be the polite ones, aren’t we? That’s the joke. But every American I’ve met lately carries this strange, pre-loaded guilt. Like they’re walking around bracing for judgment.
I didn’t expect to feel protective. But I did. I saw the tired in their eyes. The hunger to be liked again.
We didn’t talk politics directly. We talked about the view. The sea wall. The way the air smells near the totem poles. It felt good.
I felt most like myself when I shared directions to a used bookstore on Main Street, told them to ask for Marie, and promised there’d be cold water and poetry if they needed it.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is that, for all our fractures, connection still finds a way. Even between countries, even between strangers, even when the world feels sharp.
Sometimes we just need a park bench, a little shade, and a chance to remember what we share.
📓 Diarist: Lydia Langford (Greenwich, Connecticut, 21 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: Rich Girl, Reckoning
I was born into the kind of house that has a name instead of a number.
We had a full-time housekeeper before I could spell the word labor. My dad’s name still shows up in The Wall Street Journal more than I’d like. My mom sits on so many boards, I think she forgets which cause she’s chairing this season.
And me? I’m the family disappointment. Or maybe the rupture.
I spent this week organizing a community teach-in on housing justice. A kid showed up wearing a worn-out hoodie from a school I didn’t know existed five miles from our estate. He said, “You’re not like the other Langfords.”
I didn’t know what to say. But I haven’t stopped thinking about it.
Trump’s back in office. Our dinner table feels colder. My father’s more smug than usual, talking about “market correction” like it’s not people’s lives.
I see the policies. I see who gets squeezed and who gets bailed out.
And I see my name stamped on privilege like a logo I didn’t ask for.
I didn’t expect to feel this much guilt still. But maybe guilt is a compass—pointing me somewhere harder, but truer.
I felt most like myself when I let someone else speak and just listened. When I didn’t try to prove I’m “not like them”—but tried to earn my place differently.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is about unlearning wealth like a language I no longer want to speak fluently. And learning solidarity instead.
📓 Diarist: Ellie Bowman (Kansas City, Missouri, 11 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: The Shiny Rock
This week I wrote down about the sidewalk near my house where the cracks make shapes like rivers. I didn’t think it would matter, but when I read it again, I felt like I was seeing something secret.
I didn’t expect to feel brave. I thought journaling was supposed to be kind of school-ish. But it felt like picking up a shiny rock and keeping it in my pocket all day.
I noticed that when I write things down, I remember the feelings better. Not just the stuff that happened. I felt most like myself when I was writing about dinosaurs and my big dream where I find a fossil in my backyard and they name it after me.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is one where small things are big things if you pay close enough attention.
📓 Diarist: Marcus Dean (Baltimore, Maryland, 46 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: The Echo of My Own Voice
I wasn’t sure what to expect from this. I talk to people all day on my route. Tell jokes, play music, sing to the back row when traffic’s bad. But writing to myself? That felt… quieter.
This week I wrote about the silence after my last stop. The moment the bus is empty and the city’s still buzzing outside but I’m finally alone.
I didn’t expect to feel seen by what I wrote. Like it was reflecting something back I don’t always admit—that I carry a lot. The weight of folks’ moods. The job. The memories that sneak in when the engine’s humming low.
I felt most like myself when I wrote about my kids. The way my youngest laughs like his mama. The way I want to protect them from a world that doesn’t always show up.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is one of a man who sings not to be heard, but to hold something sacred.
Maybe that’s what this journal is. My echo—coming home.
📓 Diarist: Lilah Davis (Tulsa, Oklahoma, 11 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: Secret Pages & Flashlight Feelings
I hid my journal under my pillow all week. Not because I’m scared, but because it feels like magic. Like the kind of thing a girl in a fantasy book would do before she saves the day.
I wrote about things I never say out loud. Like how I miss the library, and how sometimes I feel like I’m too much and not enough at the same time.
The part that surprised me is how writing made me feel powerful. Not in a loud way—but in a flashlight-under-the-blanket kind of way. Quiet power.
I felt most like myself when I wrote about the story I made up—about a dragon who’s tired of guarding treasure and just wants to be left alone to garden.
What I didn’t write (until now) is that I’m scared of forgetting how to imagine. This journal feels like my way of remembering.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is one where I get to decide who I am, even if the world keeps trying to tell me something else.
📓 Diarist: Ravi Patel (Edison, New Jersey, 40 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: Turmeric & Truth
I did not grow up keeping a diary. We did not talk about feelings much in my family. You worked, you prayed, you cooked, you kept going. So I wasn’t sure what I would write.
But on Wednesday, I wrote about the smell in my car. It was turmeric and cardamom from the container I spilled. It reminded me of my mother’s hands and made me cry, just a little.
I was surprised how fast the words came after that. About my son’s science project. About the way my wife touches my shoulder when she knows I’m tired. About the dream I haven’t told anyone—that I want to open a spice shop someday.
I didn’t expect to feel hopeful.
The part of life I didn’t expect to care about, but do, is the walk from my car to the station every morning. I listen to the birds now.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is that even quiet men carry color. And maybe it’s time to show mine.
📓 Diarist: Tasha Bellamy (Atlanta, Georgia, 39 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: What the News Don’t Show
It’s only been a week, but already I feel like I’m writing more than I talk. Funny how that works.
I’ve been watching the news at night after the kids are asleep. Same headlines over and over—storms, layoffs, politics, tragedy. And yet, I barely see anyone who looks like me, lives like me, or does what I do.
So this week, I wrote about the real news in my house:
— Jayden finally tied his shoes by himself.
— Ava came home quietly, then danced in the kitchen to old Beyoncé when she thought no one was watching.
— Miss Nadine remembered a hymn on her own. Didn’t need help with the words. That’s front page news to me.I didn’t expect to feel protective. Of our little world. Of our truth.
I felt most like myself when I wrote about the casserole I made with whatever we had left. It didn’t look like much, but it fed everybody.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is that even in a loud, breaking world, there’s power in the quiet things we keep going.
📓 Diarist: Quinn Langford (Greenwich, Connecticut, 15 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: The Space Between Schedules
School’s out. Finals are done. My calendar is suddenly blank and it’s weirdly loud in my head.
The first week of summer vacation always feels like a hangover from achievement. You’re supposed to relax, but no one really tells you how.
I kept thinking I’d write something profound. Instead, I wrote about sitting on the back porch at night, listening to cicadas, feeling like the air is thicker with questions than answers.
The news is still buzzing in our house—elections, market dip, global heat records. Dad’s tense. Mom’s on the phone with some nonprofit thing. Lydia’s yelling about justice again.
And I’m just here, peeling an orange and wondering what any of it means.
I didn’t expect to feel adrift. But I think that’s okay. I think maybe summer is about becoming unscheduled.
I felt most like myself when I stopped doomscrolling and just wrote without a filter.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is one of observation. Of noticing what people don’t say, and trying to find my own voice in the silence.
📓 Diarist: Maddie Whitmore (Atlanta, Georgia – Buckhead, 18 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: Before the World Knew
Only three people know. Me, him, and the nurse who held my hand while I stared at the second pink line like it had the nerve to be that clear.
I haven’t told my parents yet. Greg and Elizabeth Whitmore, pillars of the community. They hosted a fundraiser in our backyard last week and my mom kept saying, “We raised futures.” I kept wondering what she’d say about mine.
His name is Ethan. He’s everything they said to look for—respectful, driven, headed to Princeton this fall. When I told him, he froze, like someone had unplugged his voice. Then he said, “We’ll figure it out.”
But I don’t know what “we” looks like when he’s three states away building a dream while I’m here, becoming a mother.
I’m not angry. I’m… floating.
I wrote this week about the quiet between texts. The ache of wanting him to really see me, not just promise to call.
I didn’t expect to feel this alone while still being loved.
I felt most like myself when I stood in front of the mirror and placed my hand on my belly like a question mark.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is about the space between love and responsibility—and the girl who’s trying to grow into both without breaking.
Diarist: Opal Freeman (Jackson, Mississippi, 74 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: I’ve Been Here Before
I was just a young girl when Emmett Till’s name reached our porch.
I remember my mother putting her hand on the radio like she was praying for it to lie. My father didn’t talk for two days.
I was a young woman when I stood outside a clinic with other Black nurses, demanding fair pay. I’ve marched. I’ve watched fire hoses. I’ve been told to “go back where I came from” on land where my great-grandfather picked cotton.
So believe me when I say—I know the signs.
This week I wrote about the headlines that don’t even bother hiding their intentions now. Voter purges. Book bans. Clinics shuttered.
They’re not even whispering anymore.
And the part that aches deepest? I already survived this once. So many of us did. We gave blood, breath, Sunday dresses, brothers, friends. We stood in lines and in church basements and in the rain. And now I watch white-haired men on television talk about “returning to traditional values,” like I’m not supposed to hear the dog whistle.
I didn’t expect to feel this furious, this late in life. But I do.
I felt most like myself when I sat at my kitchen table and wrote names in my notebook—Fannie, Medgar, Diane, Bayard, Ella. My saints.
I think the story I’m still telling is this: We were never given our rights. We claimed them. And if they think we’re too tired to do it again, they’ve forgotten what our bones remember.
📓 Diarist: Cal Wiens (Estevan, Saskatchewan, Canada, 66 years old)
Date: July 10, 2025
Entry Title: A Border Gone Quiet
When I was still farming, I used to joke that you could smell a storm coming from North Dakota before it even hit our fields.
That border used to feel like a fence between friends. Not a wall. Not a warning sign.
This week I sat on my porch and read about the new U.S. tariffs again. Wheat. Machinery. Feed additives. Everything a man needs to run a farm or keep a promise. And I thought of Roy Bennett down in Montana—fought through three drought years, finally broke even last season. Now? Bleeding from both ends.
I called him yesterday. He sounded tired. Not angry—just like someone who’s watching the bottom fall out from under everything he’s built.
I didn’t expect to feel betrayed. But I do.
This isn’t how it’s supposed to be. We used to borrow tools, trade parts, show up with a thermos when the combine went down. Now I hear folks around here saying, “Maybe it’s time we stopped trusting the Americans.”
That stings.
I felt most like myself when I wrote down a line I heard once in church: “A nation that breaks bread with its neighbor shall not go hungry.” I believe that still. But I’m starting to wonder if anyone south of the line remembers it.
I think the story I’m starting to tell is about a man watching the distance between old friends grow wider than the prairies themselves—and praying it’s not too late to close it.
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